6.22.2009

Black Sheeped Out...

uqhhh, i really haven't been feelinq whole ....
i've been missinq somethinq, it's as thouqh
i have a biq qapinq hole in my chest. i couldn't
really put my finqer on it at first but today after
beinq the peepinq un-invited thirdwheel to an un-known
happy couple, it hit me, it hit as hard as a baq of bricks.
it made my eyes tear up, my nose burn, & that biq gaping
hole in my chest ache ... i miss beinq inlove.

that feelinq of happiness has been missinq.
i don't care what anyone says, when you find
that person that makes you happy when your at
your anqriest, smile when your alone, lauqh at a
past joke when nothinqs
funny... you don't want that

feelinq to ever leave. it's the best warm tinqlinq sensation
tricklinq down your spine slow until his touch meets your
senses & you realize your lookinq love dead in the eyes.

i want that back, if not from him from another
who can make me feel better than i've ever felt
with him, thouqh at this moment i feel no one can
compare, he's my best.