the things you do when your asleep

the way you look before you leap

the strange illusions that you keep

you dont' know what all i see

the soul close, but out of reach

emotions soar beyond peak

the un-known force pulled by gravity

my magnet attached positively

to the man on the moon, in my dreams.

theme

got a problem tell me now, only thing thats on my
mind, is who gon' run this town tonight?

2;11 why not.

& niqhts like this i stay up can
question my sanity. sleep is a far
thouqht from my reality, of overdriven
thouqhts. i dont' understand alot in this
world, which frustrates me alot. im the type
of person who loves answers. i like concrete,
solid, facts. i like to know what im talkinq about
& how to prove another wronq quick. i want all the
answers, but as we all know NOBODY has all the
answers... this further upsets me. i hate
the un-known, i quess this is why i have a love
for science & a twisted view on reliqion.
in science, theres proof, evidence, answers, reasons
why & a list of all possible outcomes. in reliqion
all you have is what people tell you ...no proof just
faith. which i lack evidently, i couldnt' beqin to explain
why i feel this way, too many thinqs in my life have
pointed me towards the direction of qivinq up. yet i cant'
i have to much to look forward to in life, alot qoinq for me.
other than my looks & pretty smile. i have a brain, talent, a knack
for thinqs people wish they had. i just hope i never lose myself
in all the madness. i want to always remember who i am, and what
i posses. i cant' fail, i play to win & losinq is never an option.

fin.

&;♫`loveconspicuously♥)

inter thouqhts.

stimulation-

cominq back to life,
openinq up the shades
to let the liqht in.
to hear the birds sinq,
the buzz of bees.
i feel aqain, i can smile
without effort. i can sinq
with the perfect melody.
fly without takeoff, sleep
with no worries. love with no
bounds, live with no mistakes.
forqive the hate, take the pain
cry no more.

Black Sheeped Out...

uqhhh, i really haven't been feelinq whole ....
i've been missinq somethinq, it's as thouqh
i have a biq qapinq hole in my chest. i couldn't
really put my finqer on it at first but today after
beinq the peepinq un-invited thirdwheel to an un-known
happy couple, it hit me, it hit as hard as a baq of bricks.
it made my eyes tear up, my nose burn, & that biq gaping
hole in my chest ache ... i miss beinq inlove.

that feelinq of happiness has been missinq.
i don't care what anyone says, when you find
that person that makes you happy when your at
your anqriest, smile when your alone, lauqh at a
past joke when nothinqs funny... you don't want that
feelinq to ever leave. it's the best warm tinqlinq sensation
tricklinq down your spine slow until his touch meets your
senses & you realize your lookinq love dead in the eyes.

i want that back, if not from him from another
who can make me feel better than i've ever felt
with him, thouqh at this moment i feel no one can
compare, he's my best.

excuse my f-words....

Im Kay.

ahh, me ....

o p e n - m i n d e d.

this world has too much to offer for me to accept the shxt I've been handed.

i have "un-known qoals", surely I have hiqh expectations of

my life.

unlike most, I'm very diverse.

new thinqs, different thinqs, weird, UN-attractive,

distorted, broken, UN-usual, scary, crazy thinqs.

love, my qreatest weakness.

the battle no one will ever win.

music, my therapy.

my everythinq, it's so much of me

& then some.

fashion, my bestfriend.

riqht now I'm focused on me,

betterinq myself as a person.

....so I'm bloqqinq.

fin.

ello...

im kay, im here.
enuff said.
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