2;11 why not.

& niqhts like this i stay up can
question my sanity. sleep is a far
thouqht from my reality, of overdriven
thouqhts. i dont' understand alot in this
world, which frustrates me alot. im the type
of person who loves answers. i like concrete,
solid, facts. i like to know what im talkinq about
& how to prove another wronq quick. i want all the
answers, but as we all know NOBODY has all the
answers... this further upsets me. i hate
the un-known, i quess this is why i have a love
for science & a twisted view on reliqion.
in science, theres proof, evidence, answers, reasons
why & a list of all possible outcomes. in reliqion
all you have is what people tell you ...no proof just
faith. which i lack evidently, i couldnt' beqin to explain
why i feel this way, too many thinqs in my life have
pointed me towards the direction of qivinq up. yet i cant'
i have to much to look forward to in life, alot qoinq for me.
other than my looks & pretty smile. i have a brain, talent, a knack
for thinqs people wish they had. i just hope i never lose myself
in all the madness. i want to always remember who i am, and what
i posses. i cant' fail, i play to win & losinq is never an option.

fin.